Got a busy few months coming up. Always the way when I have no cashflow. Very much looking forward to a Jubilee party at friends house next month - obligatory fancy dress code of course! A British theme (obvs). I figured I'd be different and go as the anti-establishment: Punk! Got a t-shirt I'll be customising and a little red kilt with ripped fishnet stockings (at the request of a certain Mr Z - who I will be blaming if my legs get cold). My next step would be to find a pair of old Doc Martin boots, preferably a lot less than the prices they're going for on eBay! Regardless of whether or not I'll complete my outfit, I'm looking forward to the party. I'll admit, half the reason I'm looking forward to it is because I get to meet this rather tasty, zombie-obsessed freak. I've been assured he's a decent guy, so I'll allow myself to become interested.
My relationships are usually doomed to fail almost right at the beginning. I put it down to the fact that I unknowingly date douchebags. I'm not gonna harp on about "all men are arseholes" because it's quite boring to read - and I may lose my male fanbase! But it would be nice to meet an honest man, for once. A man who knows what he wants and a man who isn't full to the brim of emotional issues. I guess some might think I myself could be classed as having emotional issues, but I see it in that I don't let my previous relationships hang around as my "issues", but rather as my "life lessons". On the odd occasion I might try to analyse a boyfriends text, without even realising I'm doing it. "Why hasn't he texted?? He usually texts me every day but now I haven't heard anything at all!!" I'll go back and look at previous texts to see if I've said anything that might've freaked him out. We all do it. Don't pretend you dont. Why hasn't he texted....? Because he's busy! Or maybe, just maybe, you actually aren't the most important issue in his life right at this moment. It may seem incredulous to think that anything else would be more important than you, but this may often be the case. At least until he's gotten to know you a bit better, then of course he'll realise you're the most amazing thing in the world.
But now I've reached the point where I realise it's pointless worrying about shit like that. I'll still stress a bit, it's hard not to, but not out loud. I remain ever hopeful that there is a man out there somewhere who'll want to treat me as I should be treated - like a human being, with feelings! I'd like to have fun, and eventually get serious. Who knows what lies around the corner?? But....I digress.
So the Jubilee party is cause for excitement and I look forward to friends, alcohol, food (don't tell anybody but food would actually be my first priority) and zombie freaks. Well, just the one zombie freak :-)
Also on the agenda; my free trip to Dublin! Yes I finally got the date from Heart FM and I, together with my cousin, am sailing the seas (well, flying the skies actually) to the Emerald Isle next month following the party. I'm so excited, and I can understand how people really can piss themselves with excitement. I will of course be mildly drunk every evening and fall over in hysterics every time somebody says "would you like a cup'o'tea"? Or "Arse" or "ya fecking eejit". Damn Father Ted. Oh it'll be grand! Then, literally a few days after I get back I'll be off to Alton Towers with Emma and The Mexican. Yep, I'm a right "jet setter"!
I'm pretty sure there'll be lots to talk about in my Blog following the party, but most of all I just hope that Mr Z doesn't end up being a Mr D......!
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